004. Forever Obsessed | JAN & FEB 2025
new year, new me...but still playing catch up...
Welcome to my monthly magazine-esque entry of Forever Obsessed. A collection of thoughts, reviews, trends, and obsessions that took over my month.
It’s been almost two months since I’ve done a newsletter, and I’ve been missing it for sure. December was a complete shit show. I got a part-time job, and it quite literally almost took me out. My skin was horrible, I started to gain weight, and my anxiety was to the highest it could’ve been that it started to make me depressed. In this economy, I do need multiple jobs, and I’ve always been a girl who works multiple jobs like a Jamaican…but after going into a retail store for four days a week for a little over a month. My next venture has to absolutely be remote. At that moment, I couldn’t think, breathe, or do anything. It felt like I had a million tabs open, I had the rainbow Apple wheel of death, and I was still trying to connect to the internet and get shit done. The job was messy af, even though I wanted to stay for the perks, I couldn’t take it. I quit on Christmas Eve.
January was all about my birthday and basking in turning 30. Coming into a new decade felt very…awakening. Not even trying to be funny; it did feel like I woke up a whole new bitch. Usually, for my birthday, I’m always working on it being a huge production. This year was different. I googled and asked my Twitter what the “birthday blues” felt like because I felt like that’s what I had, but I had never experienced it. I just wanted to be chill, which was very unlike me. Me and my best friend just went to Mexico, and all I wanted to do was chill…be by the beach…journal…and have no plans. And I did just that.
Pampering myself but doing nothing felt like exactly what I needed to bring in the year. It felt like damn…am I now a boring bitch? Am I becoming the real TT that I always desired to be? Turning 30 just felt so different, a feeling so unexplainable, but it felt like, for once, I didn’t need to put it into words. I didn’t want to focus on taking pictures, creating content, or anything pretty. I just wanted to rot and spend each day how I saw fit when I woke up. The trip was everything I needed.
kissing my twenties goodbye playlist
Finding my staples.
My goal this year is to not overconsume things. I want to find my staple products, use them, and stick to them. I know I’ve mentioned these products before, but my holy grail combo has been Josie Maran’s Bohemian fig body butter, Body by TPH’s body oil, and Ouai’s Melrose Place perfume.
Music on repeat…
I’ve really been in chill R&B vibes lately. Of course, when my lying queen SZA dropped, I was instantly obsessed. Somebody on Twitter said SZA makes music for delusional girls, and when I tell you I was triggered. I said OH… guilty…but that is not a crime lmao. Ella Mai’s 3 EP has been on repeat, anything Sasha Keable, and a couple of songs by Odeal are in heavy rotation. Please drop me any song that makes you feel something, or a playlist you’re in love with.
Things I’ve been watching…
Not gonna yie…my attention span has been shot. It’s been hard to truly watch anything but I’m trying. One Of Them Days by Issa Rae was great. At first I was a little sketched out, I thought it was going to be silly but it was actually really good. It gave Craig and Dae Dae energy, and I feel like it has the potential to be a classic. Now Heart Eyes completely pissed me off. In the end, there was a moment where a woman proposed to a man, and they basically lived happily ever after. It really pissed me off, because that’s an agenda we should never subscribe to. I would rather count sand particles before ever thinking about proposing to a man. When I was getting my hair braided, I started Younger on Netflix. I got through two seasons, and it was the perfect chick TV show that I needed in my life. Of course it’s about a girl living her life working for a magazine in New York City…all the things that I wanted. I haven’t picked it back up since that day but I do plan to come back to it. If you’re into trash TV, my latest obsession is Jack TV on YouTube!!! I kid you not, I got put on by of my best friends, and I’ve been hooked. Imagine a modern-day Cheaters…it’s vulgar, ratchet, and real (I think). It’s also based in Houston, and I’ve seen a couple of familiar faces, making it even better.
February was all about strategizing and imagining the life I want to live. I know I keep talking about this idea I have in my head of how I see my life and I really want to push to bring that to life. I’m always in my head…for once I just want to do.
I kind of, tried to explain it here. Seeing Doechii’s journey kick-started my feelings. Scrolling down her YouTube channel, seeing how she did The Artist’s Way challenge, and witnessing her success made me feel like…OH. It’s possible. She went from being hella regular in the best way possible to living out her dream. It felt super relatable and obtainable. I’m not trying to win a Grammy or nothing, but I’m just trying to do what I want to do, and that be my life. So this month was has been about making the idea to execution gap smaller. What do I want my life to look like? I have an idea so we’re working towards that…Getting back into the flow of living a creative life is my most important project. My biggest goal is to edit one YouTube video and get it posted, which I haven’t done yet…but I’m tired of overthinking my thoughts, ideas, and paralyzing myself. I swear I’m sick of myself and seeing other people live the life I want. So from now…the plan is to just DO…just go after it.
Coming up I have a lot of major life changes happening that I’m still trying to decide on how to share/document them.
Be Obsessed.
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Here’s what you can catch up on from me this month…
I finally posted this YouTube video I’ve been hoarding since 2023. At the time, I was waiting for the perfect moment to “hard launch” Weekend Forever…but I’ve learned, honestly, that there’s no perfect time for anything…especially when it comes to art. I just picked a random day to cross off my February goal of posting a YouTube video. I love it, if you like it, leave a comment.
Dear 2015-2024, thank you. 💋
Why does turning 30 feel like thee most significant milestone birthday?
i need a new storyline.
I did a 10k run today (Feb 8), and I’m like, who fucking idea was that. During the whole run, I was just thinking about how much my body hurt, why am I doing this, and how I need to figure it the fuck out.
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Journaling is my love language, and I plan on talking about it more, so from now on, I'm incorporating prompts for you! Answer it in the comments, and let’s chat, or let me know if you will journal about it privately. :)
Journal Prompts:
What are you looking forward to in Q2?
How can I live more creatively?
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mwah 💋,
— India Monee’