is this thing on: the intro?
she's back in her writing bag, you h*es should be scared!
You know…as you get older, it seems like you get old, boring, and rusty. Work starts to get draining, friends become distance, your bed becomes more fun than going out, and the mundane becomes the norm. As I’m slowly but *surely* approaching 30, working, and having life beat me down, I understand why sometimes people are really mad at the world. It’s really like, now I get why my mama was mad I didn’t take the chicken out.
Growing up, I never wanted to be an adult…I only wanted to be a teenager. I was obsessed with that 2000s Y2K life because I actually was of it; it was my time. From Lizzie McGuire, Raven Baxter, Moesha, Lindsay Lohan, and the other “it girls” from that era, they were my obsessions, and I just wanted to frolic and live my life to the fullest. Those girls had a passion for fashion and only cared about hanging out with their friends, being pretty, and being an experts in their crafts. That’s all I ever wanted: to live for a living.
Even though I feel like my parents thoroughly equipped me with the tools to live life, I don’t think I was ready. I just never pictured what life would DO to me. Quickly after the high of graduating college wore off, I feel like that’s when life started to happen to me. Figuring out how to make ends meet for the first time by myself, working 2 jobs, living out of state trying to dream chase definitely gave me some reality for my ass.
Fast forward to my frontal lobe completely developing, it seems like I’m constantly fighting for my life every chance that I get. Life is lifeing…as the internet loves to say. Going to the “real adults” in my life for guidance or advice, started not to be enough. I’m not sure if you’ve felt like this, but I always thought there was a secret adulting manual I would get at a certain age, or my adult light blub would go off, and I would have everything figured out. Nobody told me these things would happen, but in my Disney Channel marathon of a life, I just always pictured I would get some happy ending answers. As a chronic overthinker with a stomach full of anxiety, I’m constantly wondering when it will get better and when it will get easier. But shout out to these 20-somethings.
I just never felt “adult” enough, and I think that’s what bothers me the most. It just seems like the grown folks in my life seem to have way more together than I do or…did when they were my age. It feels like I’m constantly waiting for that moment I feel like an adult. I thought moving out into my own place would do it, but now I feel like a teenager away from home, living abroad with a huge closet, no curfew, and nobody to feed me at dinner time.
As I’ve constantly scrolled the internet for answers, I’ve learned that there are no answers. I’m responsible for every decision and every turn in my life. Also, I’ve realized that life is a constant journey back to ourselves. I’m finding myself fulfilling all of the same interests I had as a kid. I’ve always been that girl with many hobbies and things I wanted to do. Exploring various interests has always been *my* thing, and when I learned how to do activities solo and not always wait on someone, I started to feel alive. Life is about living it and exploring those little kinks we need to scratch. That’s what I’m learning is what makes a whole fulfilling life…having experiences and stories to share.
As I’m journeying “back to me,” I’m using this blog to return to my roots. I really was blogging when it was that girl back in the day. I wish I still had my website *cries internally* to read everything I blogged about when I was younger. I was am still a Tumblr girlie, and this type of community is what I love to my core.
I forgot I hadn’t introduced myself. My name is India, and I’m a 29-year-old Dallas girlie living alone in her first apartment on a journey to make my life feel like it’s the weekend forever. You’ll learn more about me as I write more. OOoOoo mysterious lil bihh. ;) Living life like it’s the weekend forever means exploring my passions and hobbies and allowing myself to be multi-hyphenated without pressure to conform to one aesthetic, niching down, or fitting into one box. On a normal week or weekend, I’m always gallivanting, doing something new, like an activity, workout class, restaurant, or something. I’m literally so dedicated to living the life of my dreams, and I think that’s what keeps me going. I look at my life as a teenage drama coming-of-age film filled with glitter, fuzzy things, adventures, and glasses of champagne.
Welcome to Weekend Forever, a corner of the internet where I’ll be sharing all of my think-pieces, new adventures, and obsessions and getting you to care about the shit I care about. It may get chaotic but what’s the weekend without a little chaos? I know you’ll love it here. :)
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mwah 💋,
— India Monee’
Remember: “Who you are becoming can not be rushed, it has to grow”
the vibes fasho ya right on:
Obsessions at the moment:
Trey Songz’s Passion, Pain & Pleasure album
Cherry Limeade Poppi
Yess loved this! Giving Y2K for sure! And I love cherry limeaid too 😋