Am I bitter or an entitled bitch?
a collection of feelings featuring Tiffany Pollard gifs
I’m not where I want to be in life. And whose fault is that?
I’m fucking frustrated…it feels like this is not the adulthood I signed up for. Planes falling out the sky, bitches can’t afford to get a house, eggs prices is ass high (doesn’t even eat eggs), and niggas ain’t shit for real forreal.
Last time I checked, I didn’t sign up for the great depression! No but seriously, what is this?!
Lately, I’ve just been feeling bitter. I’m a Capricorn (just like my girl New York), and when things don’t go according to my plan…I get real agitated. The economy is really not going in my favor, I lost my second income thanks to yall’s president, my nail tech got a real job, and I don’t know where to find good quality bundles for a decent price anymore.
Do you ever look up and realize…this wasn’t in the plan? In a perfect world, I imagined I would be in New York, a magazine Editor-In-Chief, being flirty, thirty, and thriving…coming in drunk from a label party, hot and heavy, kissing my man as he’s pulling my clothes off, coming into the house. Think Sydney Shaw and Dre…but make less awkward…way sexier. But the game has changed. What do I even want now? What can I even have?
It feels like when you pull up to the chicken spot right before it’s about to close, and you asked them what’s left and they say everything, but when you order a 4 wing basket…they out of wings, thighs, legs, and tenders…you’re left with nothing but the dryest piece of meat. When is the restocking of quality experiences? All I have is student loans, a fucked up credit score, and annoyance in my pocket for every nigga I come across.
Thinking about getting a Master's degree. What is up with social security? But at least I have a high-yield savings account? I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing honestly. Does that not scare anyone? It’s really too much going on in the world and I feel like I can not keep up.
Then I had to remove myself from socials for a while because not being where I want to be and feeling subpar had me comparing myself to the girls. Seeing other people live out a piece of your dream gets annoying after a while. I had to go back to the drawing board to relax, relate, release. But I guess that’s my fault for not working hard enough?
I feel like it shouldn’t be this hard…
Or am I overthinking?
Thank you for your transparency. You’re not alone. I really felt this one to my core but I’m here to tell you that these times are what build us up and show us what we’re made of, even when it’s extremely uncomfortable. I fully believe you will achieve the goals you have for yourself and that it will all workout the way it is supposed to. God’s plan is not ours and that sucks sometimes but 10x out of 10 it is the best plan for us in the long run. You got this!
that third gif had me like “is that you tiffani” 🤣. but as a fellow capricorn, i feel this deep!